ABOUT LIFE, ABOUT ART (&the rest)

Just a song from Placebo, because Placebo's king ! (and queen)

I just started a new painting. It's a crouching woman, her posture reminds me a bit of a predator.
I got the idea from my favourite Singer Alison Mosshart. She must be awesome on stage, crouching, screaming and running in circles.
Here a song I like a lot of her (not my favourite song, but a very good one)

dna the kills (mp3, 6,388 KB)

This is a wonderful live version (but a calmer one):


This one's more crazy (starts at 0:46)



Yes and last but not least the sketch of the picture:


So that's it. When it's finished, I'll write another entry

Friend's eyes and mine... Liked the picture... Just for fun

Don't worry, there's nothing really personal about this entry... Just some thoughts.
It will be about me at the moment, focussing more on my outward appearance etc. what I think about it, what I want to change: So let's start!
I begin with my hair. It's brown I think but I'm not quite sure. Could be red as well (natural red)
Here a picture of it:


The hairline's my natural hair colour... I coloured it the last time in Christmas break

But I have this colour now since autumn last year and now I'm fed up with it. Before I wash my hair, I always pour some citrone juice on it. So it gets brighter, there are some yellow/golden/blond streaks.
But it's not enough!!!! I want it BRIGHTER!
But on the other side I'm frightened of a terrible result like pink hair. Pink is okay for one day but I couldn't wear it every day in school.
Citrones are controlling my life at the moment. I pour them on my hair and drink them to lose some weight. I never weigh myself so I don't know if it's functioning... Find it too frustrating. I wouldn't find it that bad if I had a larger head. But my head is so small, I never look okay (for myself). We'll see...
That's it... (already)
If some people read this and have blond dyed hair they could maybe write into a comment if they made a good experience... Or some who made a bad experience, if the hair becomes orange and if this orange looks VERY awful.

Do only teenagers feel like that? Like they have to make decisions but can't?
I hate that feeling, I hate my underdeveloped teenager-mind. Family is saying again and again: What's with your driving license? When will you do it? What's with your work placement? When will you call some companies? When will you write your application for Niederegger?
And I keep on thinking and saying "Monday" but feel uncomfortable with this sentence because I'm not really in the mood to do anything.
I loved the feeling to be free but as I become older, the feeling disappears. I realize how hard my life will be if I don't make provisions. And then I think at the same time "So if it's harder later, relax now!" ... Maybe I should stop thinking, it makes it all more complicated.
I have (had) a list what I want to do this year:
-driving license
-check the local school of music and art
-get a work placement for school

These are not all points, some are private. But these are the ones which give me at the moment a bad feeling. I feel guilty for not doing anything... Sucks.