ABOUT LIFE, ABOUT ART (&the rest)

I'm starting this entry because I have a feeling which keeps me from sleeping. And tomorrow's school. But I'm only THINKING my brain doesn't stop.
Well it's about that I want to play with my band on stage. But my friend is so frightened which annoys me a bit. She's frightened of loud things (WE'RE IN A BAND, IT IS LOUD!!!), frightened of microphones. I could write a song about how much she annoys me at the moment.
Just angry and a bit sad because I notice it could be impossible to perform as a band on stage which is somehow my dream. Almost crying (awkward) but can't which makes the feeling worse. I want to BURST. But can't. Sucks.